It was pointed out to me by a trusted source that “uncertainty” has settled into my body in unhealthy ways. I wasn’t surprised to hear it. After all, there’s been a lot of uncertainty these past few years for all of us, especially in 2020. In order to loosen the hold uncertainty has had on me, I went first to my mind, of course. That’s just my nature. I started listing all the things in my life and the lives of those I love that feel uncertain right now. It was quite a long list.
In doing that exercise, it came clear why I’ve been struggling. My next step was to let go of the inclination to bear the uncertainties of those around me. They must shoulder their own burdens, but I can walk alongside them and urge them along their respective paths.
We humans come into this world with uncertainty stored deep within us. For one, we know we’re going to die and so are those we love, but we’re not sure when or how. We live with that uncertainty every day. We also come into the world believing we deserve to be loved, but we’re uncertain who will truly provide that love and whether we are worthy. Many of us feel certain we were put here for a purpose, but we vacillate on what that purpose is. Most of us believe we are meant to be happy, but we’re uncertain how to achieve happiness.
